Welcome to The Women Behind The Poetry, where we interview women from the 'Journey of The Heart: Women's Spiritual Poetry Project'!
Today we introduce you to the courageous Mariann Martland whose prolific writings fearlessly encompass both light and shadow, as she explores the power in her own voice.
When and how did you first begin writing poetry?
Which subjects are easiest and hardest for you to write
poems on?
Writing
poetry, for me, is an expression of self, so the subjects of my poems are
always based on my deepest feelings, my experiences in life and the world
around me. As such this makes all the topics of my poetry both the easiest and
hardest to write about - easy because it is right there in me ready to be
expressed but hard because it is often expressing a part of me that comes from
my deepest vulnerabilities and experiences.
I write about
myself, my life, my childhood, the world, the universe, love, life, friendship,
connection, needs, wants, desires, pain, grief, heartache, trauma, sadness,
happiness, joy and everything in between... Each of these subjects are the both
easiest and the hardest for me to write about, all at the same time. Though it
is rare that I go into my writing with a subject in mind - I can’t force it,
it's just whatever is pouring out of me at the time.
When do you feel most inspired to write poetry?
At night, or
the early hours of the morning. I've been an insomniac since childhood and it
is often when the darkness falls that words begin to flood my mind, giving
voice to my deepest feelings - writing them down has become both a way for me
to express myself and a therapeutic tool.
However, it
is life that inspires me to write and life is happening constantly - some of my
personal favorites have been written during the day, outdoors, when I have felt
connected to nature and the universe or while sat on a train when a thought
pops into my head. Inspiration can hit me whenever and wherever - I just have
to hope I have a pen and my notebook with me when it does!
What is your biggest fear or hesitation when deciding to
share a poem with the public?
Oh, this is a
biggie... I've only been sharing my writing with the public for just over six
months. Each time I put myself out there I feel fear and hesitation. It goes
against the grain of all of the defenses and guards I have built over the years
to protect myself from being seen - expressing my true self is new to me and I
am learning everyday how much of myself I can reveal without feeling too
exposed. The fear here - that I will reveal a part of myself that is too dark
and too ugly for anyone to see, even myself. But sharing my writing has become
such a fundamental part to exploring and healing the wounds of my childhood
that I often now share my words without too much hesitation, the fear
often comes later!
What is the most profound thing you have learned from
writing poems?
Everything I
learn from writing feels profound. It teaches me about who I am. It teaches me
about life. It connects me to my truth and the universal truths of
humanity.
How is writing poetry a spiritual process for you?
Writing, be
it writing poetry, prose, an article, a story, is a spiritual process for me.
In fact, everything that I do in my journey through healing, understanding my
life and expressing my truth is a spiritual process. For a long time I wouldn't
have used the word 'spiritual'. My upbringing was extremely religious and I was
battling against this religion for years, so the word 'energy' was all I could
use to explain the connection I felt with the universe and humanity. The
connection I felt through writing fell into this indefinable process.
Now I can see how writing is indeed a spiritual process in its part in
connecting me to myself, to others and to the universe.
What function has writing poems played for you in your
life?
Writing is
part of me. Over the last few months I have begun to own this. Even though,
until recently, I had never shown anyone my writing and I now share it under a
pseudonym, it gives me the freedom to show parts of myself and my life that
have been hidden away for so long.
Poetry gives
me more freedom to feel, to discover, to express, and to create than any other
writing style or art form. Its abstract or unconstricted nature allows me to be
more vulnerable, raw and expressive than I find I can be in other art forms and
in other areas of my life.
What effect does reading the poems of others have on
you?
Reading a
poem that I connect with from another writer feeds my soul. It can break
my heart and put it together again. It connects me to the writer,
to humanity and to myself. It inspires me to write more.
How did you first discover Journey of The Heart?
It was before
I even contemplated sharing my own writing. I think I had clicked through from
a link on an author bio on Rebelle Society or Elephant Journal and I have been
frequent visitor ever since.
Have you publically shared your poetry before doing so via
this project?
I had been
sharing my poems and other forms of writing on my blog 'The Power of Silence'
for a few months before my first poem was shared here. One or two pieces
of writing had been published at Rebelle Society and on some sites about
childhood abuse/mental health, but this was the first time I had shared my
writing with a project dedicated entirely to poetry.
What did it feel like to share your poetry for the first
time on Journey of The Heart?
When
Catherine contacted me to ask if she could publish one of my poems I was blown
away! I felt so honored. I had been following this project and had been
inspired by the works of the poetesses here for some time and to know that my
words had been heard and appreciated by her felt wonderful.
When my first
poem, 'Slumberland', was shared here I was touched by the response and to
see my poetry quoted on a beautiful photograph like 'real' writers(!) was
overwhelming. I feel like this each time one of my poems is shared here - it
never gets old!
What has been your general experience of sharing your poetry
on Journey of The Heart?
It has been a
beautiful experience for me. There is a great amount of love and warmth in this
community and I have felt so supported and welcomed in sharing myself, and
my words. Then to be included in a book - wow! If you'd have told me a year ago
that my poems would be in any other books than the notebooks hidden in the
drawer by my bed I would not have believed you. It is a privilege to be a part
of Journey of the Heart and I will be forever grateful to Catherine for
believing in me, and my writing.
Any last words you’d like to share about poetry?
One day,
about six years ago, as I sat with my grandmother in the last days of her life,
I picked up the book that she had by her bed to see what she was
reading. It was a poetry book. She told me to pick out a poem to read.
Reluctantly I opened the book to a random page, finding 'Ode' by Arthur
O'Shaughnessy and read aloud the poem:
"We are the music-makers,
And
we are the dreamers of dreams... "
Suddenly
I fell in love with poetry. I think I'd always been in love with it. I was
already writing poems by this point in my life and felt its power and
beauty, but I was so unfamiliar with my own voice then that I couldn't see what
I was writing as poetry and my love for it was a love that I had blocked
out with the walls I had put up to shield my true self from the world.
I
didn't call myself a poet or a writer back then, I wouldn't have had the
confidence to do so, but really we're all poets, we're all writers, we're all
artists - life is poetry.
Mariann Martland is discovering a voice in her life through words, poetry, art, inspiration and healing. She is learning the difference between enforced silence in the despair of loneliness and chosen silence in the beauty of solitude; how silence can create both pain and peace. She is beginning to find her voice and share her truth. She would love to connect with you on Twitter, or Facebook and on her blog ‘The Power of Silence’.
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